Dear Blog...

I must say I really stink at blogging these days...uhm MONTHS!

I have been thinking about my blog alot lately and trying to figure out what to do, and I simply have not come up with a solution.  I love blogging.  I started out blogging many years ago to share my life with people I knew, and to keep an online diary of sorts.  The kids were younger, life was busy and there was alot to share. 

In 2008, when my Dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer in february and then passed away in October, I used my blog to write about the time I spent with him and my stepmother.  The funny things that happened, the scary things, and the sad.. . The way I felt, the way the kids felt, how Scott was doing

Up until 2008, I had kept my blog pretty light, just sharing the good that happened in life.  The daily yeehaws!

After 2008 I went back to sharing that way.  I even split my blog in two when my business of dress-up clothes for kids started taking off last year so that I wasn't always clogging this blog up with business stuff.

Enter August 2011.  I get a job at the local bookstore and decide to take it.  It is only going to be a few hours a week and Scott and I figure I can put that money away towards Nate's college.  A few days later, Scott comes home from the Drs and tells me he can not go back to work due to his neck and back.  Honestly, I think we both thought it would be a week, two at the most and he would be back at work and all would be well. I mean I am the one with the health issues, but this injury had been plaguing him for years and the pain was getting worse and worse.

Fast forward to now...almost 6 months later and he still is out of work.  Life has been a daily work of how will we pay bills, how do we keep the roof over our head, should we request assistance...and more than that the daily pain that Scott is in has taken its tole on all of us.

My point? My parents taught me if I didn't have anything good to say don't say anything at all.  Life is not AWFUL, good things happen, but the stress of Scott's injury, my health issues and such have made it hard to find the energy to write about the good things.

My dilemna?  Do I continue my blog?  Heck I am not even sure anyone reads it anymore...the only comments I get are from SPAMMERS trying to help me get a bigger...you know... or looking for a date, honey I don't have the energy to date.  The spam has gotten so bad that Ihave put comments on moderation, not that anyone knows that cuz if you did comment it would show up soon after.

I am not sure what purpose my blog is right now.  Writing things down has always helped me think things through, but still I am at a loss to know what to say most days.  I mean, I know people don't want to read all about the crappy stuff, but it is part of  life:)  So, where do I go from here?  Well, if you read through as far as here, maybe my blog isn't such a bad idea...maybe just maybe writing about the not so good is okay every now and then? 

As I was writing this I thought, well I could see if I could muster up the energy to share the good things that are happening when they happen? BUT I want my writing to be authentic too...do you see my quandry?  At this point though I find myself just wandering and rambeling, so I am going to close for now and hope I get some answers in my head to all of this.  I KNOW it isn't brain surgery, but it is important to me...

Dancingly, Denise

Comments

[Aunt Dorraine]

I read your blog everytime you put something new on it. I love reading it. Good or not so good stuff. It doesn't matter. I enjoy it. I love you.
Aunt D

[Koppanyi Zsolt]

I'm sorry to read you cannot blog. I often visit here, but I haven't commented anything. It's a shelfish thing, because I require your stories and thoughts to write down but I give nothing in exchange for it.

But now, I realized I'd miss your articles, so please keep in touch with us, simple readers. Don't write long sentences if you don't feel like it. A few word or a pic per month (or week rather) is enough... Enough for us to know how Denise is doing.

Sorry for my poor English but I wanted you to know not only spammers read you but the silent readers.

All the best

Zsolt,

Greetings from Budapest

[Marge]

I try to comment my dear but sometimes my dear but sometimes it just does not go.. keep your blog. I check often.. but no updates. share the good and bad. that is what life is. ups and downs.. love you all...............

[fran]

I think you need to keep your blog as it is your way of clearing your mind and think things thro....and I would miss it....sometimes it is the only time that I know what is going on....love you